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Monday, October 6, 2014

a trip to nowhere and a cancer diagnosis

this pregnancy has been a whirlwind. sometimes it feels like i blink and another week is gone. last weekend, hubby and i tried to make the trek to sonoma for A's cycling team BBQ. instead, we sat in the car for hours in traffic and never did make it. 

our turnaround spot (where we finally gave up and decided to just go back home) was napa. luckily, we were able to get a bite to eat and stretch our legs a bit. we were bummed that we spent a round trip total of 6 hours in the car on a sunny Saturday and never arrived at our destination. but it ended up being good. we reminisced about our first trip to napa and thought about what it would be like to return next time with a baby. it still doesn't feel possible that we will have a baby in just six short months. 


although i am thrilled to be a mama to a human child and we can't wait to meet our lil sunshine, we've been parents for almost nine years to a furry little guy that we call LG. ever since he was a spunky pup, at the age of 3 year old, i've been telling him…"mama is trying to get you a playmate, a buddy and a best friend."

and now it's finally happened. his best bud is on the way. but he's not the spunky little pup that he once was. he's middle aged and slowing down. although i know he and our baby sunshine will still have a blast together (when baby gets big enough), our joy has been dampened a tad by the words "malignant carcinoma". 


we found a pea sized mass on LG's head a few weeks ago. although our vet thought it was probably nothing, he said the safest course of action was to have it surgically removed and sent to the lab for testing. to save $200, i almost didn't have the mass tested figuring it was probably nothing and we don't really have the money. but thank goodness, my hubby said "we've already put the dog through the surgery, just send it to the lab". 

on friday, we got the call that the mass was indeed cancer. the vet called it malignant carcinoma. needless to say, we've been sad because we love LG as if he were human. he is our first baby. but we are grateful the situation isn't worse. the doctor said it isn't an aggressive type of cancer that typically spreads to other organs and he thinks that we got it all out. now we just have to watch for regrowth and hope for the best. 

it's just a reminder of how much time really went by...all of those years we spent trying to conceive. and how important it is to cherish every moment of happiness and love we are blessed with in life. things can take a turn at any moment….the only thing we have are these little moments all strung together. so tonight, i will snuggle LG a little bit longer and be grateful for the time we've been given with this amazing creature. 


32 comments:

trialsbringjoy.com said...

Oh LG! I'm so glad you got it tested and that they feel they got it al removed. Gosh these furbabies of ours have been through so much...sending healing thoughts your way LG! You've got a little brother to watch over soon! Xoxox

Kacy said...

So sorry to hear about your pup. I've been so obsessive over all of this infertility business that it's hard for me to stop and realize how lucky I am for my marriage and furkids. Thanks for reminding me. I hope that your baby is all healed!

Laura Rahel said...

Praying for the best for the fur baby! He is such a cutie!

JoJo said...

Awww. I hope he sticks around long enough to create memories with ur son. U look great and that bump looks so adorable.

Ashley @ Life on the Parsons Farm said...

Oh Jessah I am so sorry to hear this news! While we've only had Cooper 7 years and Sakari 6 we have spent practically their whole lives TTC. Not to mention I lost my horse back in March who had been a part of my life longer than not and he never got to take Ellie for a ride :(

Finley S said...

Lovely! Your poor little puppy dog! Time is a precious thing and pets become so much a part of the family! What a journey your dogs been on with you. Get better little doggy!

Jennifer T said...

You look great!
I'm so sorry to hear about your dog. Thank you for such a good reminder to truly cherish the happy, special times.

Cristy said...

What a nice outcome to an unexpected change in travel plans.

I'm so sorry to hear about LG's diagnosis. My hope is that the surgery extracted all of the cancer and that he is on the mend.

Infertile625 said...

Teary eyed for your furry little friend. It will definitely make me hug my puppy a little tighter tonight.

As for pregnancy, you look great! How are you feeling???

"B" said...

Oh poor puppy. Hopefully you don't see regroth and LG has many more years in your family. While the scary C word has never come up in our furry family members we did have to deal with seizures in our first fur baby. He was our EVERYTHING and one day is seizures took a turn for the worse and that was it, we had to make the hardest decision of our lives. I still remember that night like it was yesterday. It is a good reminder to cherish every moment, forgive easily, and love hard! Your baby bump is so stinking cute! (Curious if you have decided on a name for Baby Sunshine yet?)

Jessica said...

Poor baby! I'm glad to hear the vet thinks they got it all, and will be hoping that the nasty cancer leaves your handsome boy alone so that he can enjoy baby sunshine for many long years!

The Run Away Stork said...

Aw - Poor LG. I'm so glad that the news seems to be positive though. He is as lucky to have you guys as you are to have him.

Also glad to hear that the time is going quickly! Your sunshine baby will be here before you know it! So happy for you guys.

Always Maylee said...

Aw I'm so sorry to hear about your doggy. Hopefully they got it all! And you look so cute, you're definitely glowing! :)

xo, Yi-chia
Always Maylee

Krystal Sullivan said...

Look at that cute little bump! Hoping your dog stays well and that the cancer does not return. We have a dog to and she is like our child -we know what it is like to love a dog like that! Prayers and best wishes.

Just T said...

I am so happy you are having a good pregnancy and your little boy is growing away. Lets keep it that way!

Your poor pup. That picture just breaks me heart. I am so glad that it is treatable though!

Amie said...

You are just too precious!!! So sorry to hear about your pup, I totally understand that they are family too.

Gypsy Mama said...

Our pets hold such a special place in our hearts. I'm glad the vet was able to remove it all.

Charity said...

Aww Jessah so sorry to hear about your pup. Hoping that he and baby Sunshine get to play together for a long while and that the cancer never comes back.

shay said...

aw, poor pup! hope the cancer stays away! and i'm sure he will love having a new playmate!

J and A said...

Awe poor LG. Sending love and hugs his way. :( Love seeing that belly grow. You are stunning.

Mel said...

Your bump is super cute! And SO sorry about the cancer diagnosis for your sweet pup :( One week after my IF baby was born my furbaby was dignosed and was gone 3 days later...enjoy every day you get!

Melissa Long said...

Aw I'm sorry! I hope they did get it all and your pup does beautifully!

Love the bump shot! :)

Non Sequitur Chica said...

Oh no I'm so sorry to hear about LG's cancer! I hope that the vet is right that they got all of it.

AMY MICHELE said...

Such a sweet post. I have had Grizzly for 12 going on 13 years. To hear he has a heart condition and a torn tranchea - is heartbreaking. He IS my baby. He IS my world. I want nothing more then a baby to grow in my womb and to cradle in my arms someday but I love Grizzly just as much. I feel that our fur babies prepare us for the world of motherhood in so many ways. I'll be praying for LG. I'm sure he'll be so excited to have a buddy & playmate in six short months!
Again I'm so happy for you & Your hubby. What an amazing story you get to tell your little 'Sunshine' one day.

<3,
Amy

Emily said...

Awe, poor little pup! He's so cute, even with stitches. So happy it's not aggressive and they think they got it all. Hope he heals quickly!

Cute bump too mamma! You are going to be super duper cute all the way up through the end I can tell! Love seeing pics of you preggers. Yay :)

Caroline @ In Due Time said...

Sweet Jessah - so sorry to hear about your sweet little pup! I.hate.cancer. Seriously :(

On another note - your bump is precious!!! You look great momma! xoxo

Sunflower said...

Sorry to hear about your pup, but glad you got it tested and the prognosis is good.
You are looking great - happy that the pregnancy is progressing well.

Aubrey said...

Oh my goodness I'm so sorry about LG!!! I'll be praying everything will be ok and that he and your baby will be buds for a long time!

Whitney said...

Awwwww poor LG, that just breaks my heart. I love sweet puppies. Those years with our dog are always cherished because they are like your babies when you can't have any... So happy things are going well in your pregnancy. It's fun to think "the next time we do this we will have a baby"... now that we have ours we laugh about those moments when we said that!!! It all comes full circle, I am SO happy for you!! Your hubby already has the look of a proud papa!

Dream Chase said...

That's so sad about poor LG, I really hope they got it all out. Poor, sweet pup. And you look glowing mama!! I'm really hoping for nothing but the best and happiness for you guys.

Weylin said...

I love your bump! I'm sorry about your dog :(. Sometimes it just seems like the hurdles never stop, but you are a real inspiration to keep trekking.

Amber said...

Sometimes it surely does feel like a week goes past in the blink of an eye! Crazy. I'm glad your trip to nowhere wasn't a complete bust and it was time at least spent with each other. I'm also glad the cancer isn't the type to spread easily. Hopefully it was just a short bump. Life does have a funny way of reminding us what's important sometimes.

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