this pregnancy has been a whirlwind. sometimes it feels like i blink and another week is gone. last weekend, hubby and i tried to make the trek to sonoma for A's cycling team BBQ. instead, we sat in the car for hours in traffic and never did make it.
our turnaround spot (where we finally gave up and decided to just go back home) was napa. luckily, we were able to get a bite to eat and stretch our legs a bit. we were bummed that we spent a round trip total of 6 hours in the car on a sunny Saturday and never arrived at our destination. but it ended up being good. we reminisced about our first trip to napa and thought about what it would be like to return next time with a baby. it still doesn't feel possible that we will have a baby in just six short months.
although i am thrilled to be a mama to a human child and we can't wait to meet our lil sunshine, we've been parents for almost nine years to a furry little guy that we call LG. ever since he was a spunky pup, at the age of 3 year old, i've been telling him…"mama is trying to get you a playmate, a buddy and a best friend."
and now it's finally happened. his best bud is on the way. but he's not the spunky little pup that he once was. he's middle aged and slowing down. although i know he and our baby sunshine will still have a blast together (when baby gets big enough), our joy has been dampened a tad by the words "malignant carcinoma".
we found a pea sized mass on LG's head a few weeks ago. although our vet thought it was probably nothing, he said the safest course of action was to have it surgically removed and sent to the lab for testing. to save $200, i almost didn't have the mass tested figuring it was probably nothing and we don't really have the money. but thank goodness, my hubby said "we've already put the dog through the surgery, just send it to the lab".
on friday, we got the call that the mass was indeed cancer. the vet called it malignant carcinoma. needless to say, we've been sad because we love LG as if he were human. he is our first baby. but we are grateful the situation isn't worse. the doctor said it isn't an aggressive type of cancer that typically spreads to other organs and he thinks that we got it all out. now we just have to watch for regrowth and hope for the best.
it's just a reminder of how much time really went by...all of those years we spent trying to conceive. and how important it is to cherish every moment of happiness and love we are blessed with in life. things can take a turn at any moment….the only thing we have are these little moments all strung together. so tonight, i will snuggle LG a little bit longer and be grateful for the time we've been given with this amazing creature.