thank you to those who emailed and commented on IG...i didn't mean to worry you. we feel blessed to have so many cheerleaders rooting for us. baby sunshine and i are doing really well. i'm in my 12th week and just had my last PIO injection. yay! with 2cc's of progesterone per night for 12 weeks, my rear end didn't have a single spot that was lump-free and hubby was getting sick of hearing me blubber about it. now i just worry that my body is producing the estrogen and progesterone needed to support this pregnancy on its own. my doctor says that it is and i shouldn't be concerned. so i'm trusting that everything will be just fine.
bye bye sharps containers. i can't believe i filled all of these up.
i never intended to take a blogging hiatus and go MIA for so long. i've just been so tired. after a two hour per day commute, a 8-10 hour work day, trying to eat healthy and walk 45 minutes per day…i've been out of commission by 8:30pm (right after my PIO shot). hopefully in my second trimester, i'll be able to catch up on all my blog reading and commenting.
when i did have a rare burst of energy to write, i struggled to find the words. the right things to say. i'm so happy for this pregnancy yet i am sad for all of my friends that are still in the trenches - praying nightly for their miracle babies. truth is, i know how to be infertile. it has been my life for almost 6 years. writing about my infertility was easy because i knew it would help others feel less alone. but now, my blog has the potential to cause pain. i know how tough it can be to read glowing pregnancy posts after you've just experienced a failed cycle. so i struggle to find the balance between supporting those who are still trying to build their families and sharing this crazy, wonderful time in my life.
this time is filled with happiness, worry, excitement and fear and i want to share all of that here. but i don't want to hurt anyone.