Friday, September 26, 2014

fertility friday | ttc sisters

happy friday! 
hope ya'll had a fantastic week.

today, i wanted to share an awesome new website. TTC Sisters was developed for women struggling to conceive or battling infertility, to connect with others who understand what they are going through, in a safe place filled with support, encouragement and some really amazing people. on the website, you'll find forums, ttc gift exchanges, recipes, meet ups and much more.

it's truly a great site for this community. you should definitely check it out. in addition to offering support, it is a place of positivity where they showcase infertility success stories. my story (although i won't really feel like i've achieved "success status" until my baby is in my arms) was the first interview to be featured on their blog. 

i thought you might enjoy reading it so i copied it below.

What have you learned about yourself through this journey?

Our very long ttc journey (almost 6 years) has taught me that I’m stronger than I think I am. When I get knocked down, I do have the strength to keep getting back up, putting one foot in front of the other and continuing to fight for my heart’s desire.

Looking back, would you have done anything differently? If so, what?

Sometimes I wish we would’ve started trying earlier and maybe my eggs would’ve still been good. Or I wonder if we would have tried IVF sooner, if I might have been able to have a child with my eggs. But really, I don’t think I’d do anything differently. When you’re in the trenches and you don’t know how this journey will end, the fear of being childless forever drives you. But I believe this child is the one that I’m supposed to have – not one with my own eggs.

What was the most challenging part of your journey?

The most challenging part of this journey was dealing with the roller coaster of emotions that I felt throughout infertility. My hopes would rise so high and then come crashing down when we received another BFN. The longer you move through the cycle of treatments, that roller coaster goes higher and the fall is even steeper with each failure.

How has your marital relationship evolved through your journey?

My marriage is not the same as it was when we first started trying to grow our family. Not even close. A few years ago, we stopped communicating and my husband and I both put up walls to protect ourselves. At one point, the relationship had deteriorated so much that we considered separating and even discussed divorce. Something I never thought would happen. But sometimes it takes hitting rock bottom to put your priorities into perspective. I realized that having a baby wasn’t the most important thing to me…saving my marriage and thriving in my relationship is much more important. It helped me realize that not being able to have a baby really isn’t the worst thing that could happen…losing my marriage is. We have both grown tremendously on this journey. Although saying I’m grateful for infertility would definitely be a stretch…I feel we were meant to go through this to grow together instead of apart.

What was the craziest old wives tale you ever tried?

Probably putting my legs in the air after baby dancing. While intuitively, it makes sense…I think it is a total wives tale and I probably looked pretty ridiculous doing it.

Did you ever want to give up? What motivated you to keep going?

There were so many times when I wanted to give up, especially after being told my best chance of success was using an egg donor. But I really don’t know how to quit trying for something that means so much to me. When you have a deep desire in your heart, how do you ignore that? I always believed that I was meant to be a mother so I had to adapt and keep trying different paths until I found myself on the one that would bring us our baby.

What should you say to a friend battling infertility?

I’m sorry. What you’re going through sucks. Hang in there. I’m here for you. And acknowledge that everyone’s journey is so different and what’s right for one person isn’t always right for another. That means don’t say “why don’t you just adopt, or relax or try IVF”. It’s best to keep your opinions to yourself and just be a good listener.

What’s one piece of advice you would give other TTC Sisters?

Breathe and take it one step at a time. This journey can be overwhelming if you look too far ahead.

Monday, September 22, 2014

baby sunshine's shenanigans {+ giveaway}

the old expression "he's a ham" popped into my head during my 13 week ultrasound and nuchal translucency screening last week. the ultrasound tech was trying to measure the back of baby boy's neck. but he just would not roll over for anything. he kept putting his face up to the ultrasound wand and waving at us. it was seriously the cutest thing ever. well, except that he looks a little like skeletor from "He-Man" for those of you 80's gals. 

the poor lady had me roll over several times, go to the bathroom…anything she could think of. after he was good and ready (about 40 minutes of his shenanigans), he finally decided to roll over and stop posing for the wand. she was able to measure what she needed to measure. 

the result of the nt scan was negative. yay! so far this pregnancy has been smooth sailing. since the journey to conceive was so rough, maybe i will get lucky with pregnancy and child birth. one can hope anyways…

here's a bump update for anyone who is itching for one.

and oh my cuteness. look at this onesie for baby sunshine. how fitting…

trulysanctuary onesie - 12 months
my fashion blogger friend, yi-chia at always maylee, turned me on to this fun etsy shop called trulysanctuary. it is a husband and wife team, out of portland. they hand make each piece of clothing. the ideas begin on a simple sketchpad and each graphic is designed to keep items unique. 

this hubby and wife duo are kinda my heroes because they've managed to escape the rat race and do what they love….and the result is a quality, quirky product for us to enjoy. 

and because they're awesome,
they are offering to give away any one item in their shop (winner's choice) on this blog. to enter the giveaway, just follow trulysanctuary on one of their social media outlets and leave a comment below. 
instagram: @trulysanctuary
twitter: @trulysanctuary

***congrats to Vanema220 - comment #15. you're the winner.
please email me to claim your trulysantuary gear.

Friday, September 19, 2014

fertility friday | community blog post

happy friday! 
we've made it. almost. 

i've been wracking my brain to figure out the best way to stay involved in this community after our little miracle has arrived. and i have an idea. every friday, i will post something for the infertility community and host a link up. the link up will allow all of us to stay connected, share information and support each other. sometimes i will be sharing some breaking news that I read about infertility, doing a book review, highlighting a fellow blogger who is in need of support, hosting a giveaway or providing some value to this community.

if you'd like to join in the fun, just write about something anything related to fertility and link your post up on this blog every week starting next friday. feel free to grab the button below and share when posting for the link up.

so to start us off…
i have to share a little something that i've been working on with my lovely friend chelsea….it's a community blog post featuring some of my favorite bloggers. have you been held captive by a lie that you have believed as truth during your infertility journey (or just throughout your life)? i certainly have. in this post, each of these amazing ladies share one of the great lies that they have defeated (or continue to battle) on this journey.

this is a great post that you can read over at chelsea's blog Starbucks, Peace, and the Pursuit of a Baby. a big thanks to chels for all of her hard work organizing this post! 
hope you go check it out and enjoy your weekend!

Saturday, September 6, 2014

no more PIO

11 weeks | san francisco | my first maternity top

we're doing good. 
thank you to those who emailed and commented on IG...i didn't mean to worry you. we feel blessed to have so many cheerleaders rooting for us. baby sunshine and i are doing really well. i'm in my 12th week and just had my last PIO injection. yay! with 2cc's of progesterone per night for 12 weeks, my rear end didn't have a single spot that was lump-free and hubby was getting sick of hearing me blubber about it. now i just worry that my body is producing the estrogen and progesterone needed to support this pregnancy on its own. my doctor says that it is and i shouldn't be concerned. so i'm trusting that everything will be just fine. 

bye bye sharps containers. i can't believe i filled all of these up.

i never intended to take a blogging hiatus and go MIA for so long. i've just been so tired. after a two hour per day commute, a 8-10 hour work day, trying to eat healthy and walk 45 minutes per day…i've been out of commission by 8:30pm (right after my PIO shot). hopefully in my second trimester, i'll be able to catch up on all my blog reading and commenting.

when i did have a rare burst of energy to write, i struggled to find the words. the right things to say. i'm so happy for this pregnancy yet i am sad for all of my friends that are still in the trenches - praying nightly for their miracle babies. truth is, i know how to be infertile. it has been my life for almost 6 years. writing about my infertility was easy because i knew it would help others feel less alone. but now, my blog has the potential to cause pain. i know how tough it can be to read glowing pregnancy posts after you've just experienced a failed cycle. so i struggle to find the balance between supporting those who are still trying to build their families and sharing this crazy, wonderful time in my life.

this time is filled with happiness, worry, excitement and fear and i want to share all of that here. but i don't want to hurt anyone.

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