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Monday, June 30, 2014

starting our donor IVF cycle


we are doing this. 
we signed all of the consent forms. 
and it brought me back to a time when i was so overwhelmed by this stack of paperwork. all of the worst case scenarios and risks for the procedures and drugs used to bring me to tears. this time, i was able to initial every page without so much as a tear. it is amazing what you can get used to. 

just like in cycles past, i read every page and my husband didn't read a single page. he said "tell me the highlights". we know the risks but we push forward for the mere chance of having a baby to call our own. 

this time, i thought about k. i wondered what it was like for her to read all of the scary possible side effects from stimming and initial anyways. even though she didn't need to take any of these risks because she's already created her family. i thought of her husband who agreed to this donor cycle as well. who signed his name to a piece of paper (our legal contract) consenting to this. knowing that his wife and the mother of his children will be taking the risks outlined in this stack of papers for someone else's benefit. 

i'm humbled and reminded every step of the way how incredibly self-less they are. 
and we are filled with hope that this cycle just might have a different outcome than previous cycles.

*check back frequently daily 
as I will try to catch up on all my blogs posts this week to bring y'all up to speed.


38 comments:

Amanda said...

Eeeeek! I'm so excited for you! Yay for K and wonderful, selfless people and yay for a fresh start and a new chance! Hoping for some WONDERFUL news soon, Jessah! You deserve it!

Ashley Sanderson said...

My heart is beating so fast as I read this! I'm so happy for you and can't wait to read your blog daily and be updated on it all!!! This is your time Jessah!!

Amie said...

I am so excited for you!! Praying this cycle is the one for you!!

The Run Away Stork said...

So excited that you are one more step closer to starting your donor cycle. Feeling so hopeful for you and praying every day for great results.

Laura Rahel said...

Yah! So excited you guys are starting!

Jessica said...

Can't wait to follow along in this new chapter! Praying that it brings wonderful things for you and your hubby! :)

Morgan Brooks said...

YESS!!! This makes me beyond excited!!!!!!!! I don't think I could use enough exclamation points!

waiting and wishing said...

So amazing. Such a gift. Sooooo excited and hopeful for you!!!

Caravan Sonnet said...

Your comment "it is amazing what you can get used to"... soo true... I look back on things that I thought were so difficult in this health journey two years ago and now don't make me nervous even let alone scared. Truly the strength of time and experience... I continue to be amazed and inspired by you! I am hoping and praying with y'all that this cycle has a different outcome then others! What a hero you are!! Excited to read along with this new season!
:) Sending good thoughts your way!
:) Rebecca

Aubrey said...

Woohoo! I'm so excited for you! I will be praying and thinking of you every step of the way. XO

RunCC37 said...

Up, up, and awayyyyyy!! Good luck!!

Emily said...

I bet there is something to be said about the pressure being off of your own body and feeling a sense of relief to create the eggs necessary for this pregnancy. I'm glad that signing the paperwork wasn't nearly as hard as you thought emotionally. I think you've really kept such a healthy outlook on this whole process and I think the whole relationship with K was just heaven sent.

Kayla MKOY said...

Praying for good things!! :) yay!

Shari Carvajal said...

so exciting for you! yayyy. new blog up and running please follow

Elena Ridley said...

Yay!! So glad to hear this!! Best of luck and many blessings to ALL involved in this process!!! Lets make a baby!!

Bren said...

Woo hoo!!! This is so exciting! Praying, praying. Praying! Also, I didn't realize you're at SDFC as well. Small world! Hopefully I'll see you around :)

A Few Good Eggs said...

Oh, this is so exciting! Can't wait for all of the updates.

Caroline said...

so awesome Jessah!!! Excited for you!

JoJo said...

Wow! Things are really coming along. I'm glad there's ppl that are selfless like K. Praying for wonderful news soon.

Northern Star said...

Oh my goodness Jessah, this is amazing. I am thrilled for you and A! This is really happening! All sorts of positive thoughts headed your way - and wishing all the best to K and her husband through this process. A million hugs! xoxoxoxoxoxo

Gypsy Mama said...

so exciting!!!! good luck girlfriend :)

Sarah said...

I'm so excited for you, Jessah! xoxo

Aramis said...

Great news! I still can't believe how this all came together for you guys. I'm not a big believer in "meant to be" but this is as close as I've ever seen. Can't wait to see how this goes, good luck to all of you!

Krystal Sullivan said...

It is so wonderful to see this process moving! You, your family, and K will be in my prayers.

Before Baby Lady said...

Infertility continues to show me how strong I can be, I'm sure you feel the same. When you want something so badly, you're willing to sacrifice anything. So glad that you have a plan! Praying that this will bring you the baby you so deserve!

The Granberrys said...

So, SO excited to read more! : )

Whitney B. said...

It's official yayyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy!!!!

Cristy said...

Sending you love and light as you begin this cycle. I'm hoping for you and A, Jessah.

Sarah said...

Yay!!! I'm smiling from ear to ear xo ps have you ever read Dear Donor by Ellen Carpenter?

futureMom said...

Very exciting, Jessah!!!

I can haz babyz? said...

K is an amazing person and very selfless!! I'm very excited for you and wishing you all the luck in the world!!!
--MM29 (Mindy)

monica yard said...

My heart is literally exploding with happiness for you and your husband. Your donor is beyond the definition of kind and selfless. I can't wait to follow you *daily* on the journey to your little one and I'll be sending up big prayers for you!! ((Hugs))

shay said...

This is so exciting and I am crossing my fingers for you every step of the way!

Nikki Wehmeir said...

So happy to see things are moving along for you, Jessah! One of the top clinics in the country, donor with a huge heart, and your positive attitude...sounds like the beginning of a wonderful experience! Thank you for sharing your story with others <3

Always Maylee said...

Yay, I'm so happy for you. Good luck and I'll be thinking of you!

xo, Yi-chia

Laura @ Making Baby Provence said...

I get goosebumps every time I think about this. I'm so excited for you!

Elisha Kearns said...

I am so excited for you and how sweet is it that while you are signing, you are thinking of your donor. You are the sweetest person ever! Sending you hugs! xo

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Amber said...

Yeah, my husband never read any of that either, but I did. Maybe it's a guy thing. I'm so excited for you as you take on this new venture toward your family and praying it works. Also praying that none of those scary scenarios pop up for any of you.

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