and it brought me back to a time when i was so overwhelmed by this stack of paperwork. all of the worst case scenarios and risks for the procedures and drugs used to bring me to tears. this time, i was able to initial every page without so much as a tear. it is amazing what you can get used to.
just like in cycles past, i read every page and my husband didn't read a single page. he said "tell me the highlights". we know the risks but we push forward for the mere chance of having a baby to call our own.
this time, i thought about k. i wondered what it was like for her to read all of the scary possible side effects from stimming and initial anyways. even though she didn't need to take any of these risks because she's already created her family. i thought of her husband who agreed to this donor cycle as well. who signed his name to a piece of paper (our legal contract) consenting to this. knowing that his wife and the mother of his children will be taking the risks outlined in this stack of papers for someone else's benefit.
i'm humbled and reminded every step of the way how incredibly self-less they are.
and we are filled with hope that this cycle just might have a different outcome than previous cycles.
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as I will try to catch up on all my blogs posts this week to bring y'all up to speed.