maybe my well of tears has finally run dry.
maybe there are only so many tears
that can be shed about the same thing before the tears just stop coming.
maybe after so much disappointment and heartbreak over the last five years,
one learns to respond to bad news with a sort of businesslike indifference.
maybe i've become stronger through this journey
and can handle more than i could before.
whatever the reason,
i didn't really respond how i thought i would when i received bad news yesterday.
after being let down so many times along the way,
every hope that a different supplement, diet, doctor, procedure or prayer will bring a different outcome
but always ending up the same way.
empty womb. empty arms.
i just accepted it.
but let me back up a little bit and tell you the news straightway.
Come to Me, and rest in My loving Presence. You know that this day will bring difficulties, and you are trying to think your way through these trials. As you anticipate what is ahead of you, you forget that I am with you--now and always. Rehearsing your troubles results in experiencing them many times, whereas you are meant to go through them only when they actually occur. Do not multiply your suffering in this way! Instead, come to Me, and relax in My peace. I will strengthen you and prepare you for this day, transforming your fear into confident trust.