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Thursday, December 12, 2013

Hi. My name is Jessah...and I am an addict.


I have a drug problem...of the prescription nature.

Human Menopausal Gonadotropin. 
Follicle Stimulating Hormone. 
Antagon. 
Leuprolide. 
Human Chorionic Gonadotropin. 
Somatropin.

Otherwise known by their "street" names.
Menopur. 
Follistim. 
Ganirelix. 
Lupron. 
Pregnyl. 
Saizen.

The high that I get from these drugs is like no other. 
Each injection fills me full of hope. Hope that I will someday carry a baby in my womb. Hope that I will bring a child into this world. Hope that I may still be a mother....if it is God's will.

My dealers (la farmacias) are trying to take me to the cleaners. But some very special ladies (who've kicked the habit because they got knocked up), have offered to donate their drugs...on the DL. Y'all know who you are....A BIG FAT THANK YOU! I still don't have all my fixes but this big score will definitely help.

I'll start shooting up...one week from today. 
I'm jonesin' hardcore. 
Ready to do this!


26 comments:

Emily said...

Great sense of humor. Ha! Gotta find a way to laugh sometimes. That is so awesome you have people donating their drugs to you. Any little bit helps!

Aubrey said...

Praying praying praying that those drugs do just what you need them to do! XOXO

Charity said...

Aww this post made me smile!! I am glad you are upbeat and ready to Go!! Praying for you in this journey! XO!

Just T said...

Love this post and also the woman that selflessly donate thier left over medications. The cost of these drugs are crazy! Good luck and sending you so many positive thoughts and wishes!

A Life Without Mofongo said...

I pray that soon you and I both will become beautiful mommies. I know how hard this is but soon we will have our rewards. I’m keeping you in my prayers. Be Blessed.

Mrs. Lost said...

Praying for you!!

Endo_Life said...

I am hoping and praying for you! Lets hope you both get your dream come true for 2014 xx

How great that you have wonderful people who are passing the drugs you need over to you. Such an act of kindness when the cost is so high.

shay said...

That is awesome that you got some "help" from some friends! If we have to do another round of IVF vs FET, the drug prices are just astronomical. It's a freakin crime that this stuff isn't covered. Who can we complain to?

Kasey A said...

Yay so glad that you were able to get your "fix"!

Laura said...

Hoping right along with you!

Mrs B. said...

Haha this made me laugh! I always thought before I did IVF that the injections would be this scary, emotional event but instead, I found them exciting! I am totally rooting for you and hope this cycle brings lots of strong frozen embies for your FET next year. You're in my prayers!

Laura Rahel said...

bahahaha I LOVE this post!

Suzanne said...

Hilarious post, yet I completely remember that fertility drug high!! Here's to all good things this cycle. Sounds like I'll miss you in Denver by only a week or so. Big bummer!!! xoxo

Meg Brink said...

If you are still looking for a fix I might be able to help you :) So excited for this next cycle Jessah! Sending prayers always!

Caroline said...

One week!! Hope this is the cycle for you girl!

Katie @ The Campbell's said...

Praying! I will be starting again the first of January. Excited and nervous all at the same time! Praying for you!

conceptionallychallenged said...

That is so sweet. I really hope that, with all these extra good drugs and positive vibes, this will finally be your cycle.
Take care.

alesha said...

What sweet friends to help your addiction :) Best of luck, you're in my thoughts and prayers!

Ashley {Life on the Parsons Farm} said...

What a blessing!! I know the HCG is not cheap, so I can only assume the cost of the others!

35d9f2b8-64c4-11e3-bbd5-000bcdcb2996 said...

Thinking of you... You are a very strong woman... Baby dust baby dust baby dust!!

Elena Ridley said...

Im on follistem and Ganirelix right now too!! Having my 2nd IUI on Monday! Stay strong, prayers to you!

www.babyridleybump.blogspot.com

D. said...

such an awesome post. written with light-hearted humor, humility, and hope. looks like you and i will cycle very close to each other. :) i start lupron on wednesday, and everything else on friday.

thinking of you!

ps. you are in the bay area, yes?

Aramis said...

So true! Sign me up for Infertiles Anonymous!

Amber said...

I have a lot of hope for you as well, Jessah! This infertility world is full of addicts. I am so glad that some of the others were able to help out with the meds, because they truly are astronomical in price!

Mrs Harris said...

Yay! My girlfriends and I talk about our fertility drugs like they're street drugs all the time. X-D

Your post was too cute.

Good Luck this CYCLE! You're journey is one it's way to being complete

Janna Renee said...

This is one addiction that I won't look down on ;)

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