Friday, September 6, 2013

IVF + Labor Day weekend update

I can't believe it's been two weeks since I last posted. 
My how time flies. 
Well, I'm alive.

But barely.
I feel pretty rotten.

Little blue pills are not my friend.
I've been taking 4 MG of estradiol per day as of Monday. 

I'd ask all you veteran IVFers if that is a lot. But I already know the answer. When I picked up my prescription, the pharmacist had to go ask the other pharmacist if he was sure the dosage was correct. He responded that he was alarmed as well so he called my prescribing doctor who confirmed that is indeed the dosage he'd like me on.

Lucky me.
I'm experiencing every symptom in the book. Nausea. Upset stomach. Headaches. Endo pain.

Okay, enough with my pity party. At least, we're moving forward. I start my ganirelex injections tomorrow and then stims a week after that. Yikes. 

To pass the time, I've been...working. And um, working. Unfortunately, I feel so disconnected from blogland because I haven't had any time to read or write. But I'm hoping things start to get better soon. We hired a new coordinator at my office so I'm hoping to have some breathing room.

I was finally able to get some "me + hubby" time over the Labor Day weekend. 
Here are the highlights:

1. I completed my IVF wish board! 

As I mentioned here, it was my aunt's idea so that I can better visualize a successful outcome for this cycle. Yes, this is the very same aunt that saved me during the Day 3 blood draw fiasco. She rocks! 

To create the board, I searched the Internet for images that I loved that are related to babies and pregnancy. They are the things that I wish for and dream of....that I hope come true through this IVF.

Experience a healthy pregnancy. 
Buy and wear cute maternity clothes. 
Write in a pregnancy journal.
 Decorate my baby's nursery. 
Host a baby gender reveal party. 
Give my baby this stuffed lamb. 
Rock my precious little one to sleep in a glider. 
See his/her big eyes looking up at me. 
Dress my toddler in comfy winter clothes to play in the yard. 
Bake cookies with my child and watch my husband teach him/her how to ride a bike. 

Just some simply things that parents enjoy every day.

2. We travelled to San Francisco with A's parents. 

3. A won first place in one of his toughest races of the season in downtown SF.

4. We relished the (almost) Fall weather in the Bay area. 
If you follow me on Instagram (@dreamingofdimples), you may have already seen some of these images. Lately, I've been posting on IG because it only takes a few minutes to share images and updates. 

Hope you had a great holiday weekend....and now it's Friday so enjoy the next one.  


Just T said...

Your aunt sounds like a pretty amazing lady. It is nice to have those people in your life that help guide you down a positive road.

I love all your pictures. Hoping and crossing all my fingers and toes for some nice big follicles!

Mrs. Lost said...

I'm glad to see so much happiness in this post! Good things are going to happen. Prayers coming your way!

Aramis said...

I was on the same dose of Estrace, 2mg twice a day. Lucky for me I had no symptoms, I am really sorry that it's doing a number on you! I remember the first time I picked up my dose I got a similar reaction from the pharmacist, asking if I had specific instructions on how to take it. I guess they don't deal with IFers every day. I'm really hoping this cycle works out for you. So far the estrogen priming seems to be working for me (much more even follicle growth) but we'll see what happens at retrieval/fertilization.

Jennifer T said...

Hi I'm new to your blog. Love your IVF board! What a great idea!!! Good luck on your next cycle!

Mrs B. said...

What a beautiful idea to have a wishboard! Love it!

Emily said...

Sorry the estradiol isn't treating you well. I have heard it makes some people nauseas and to take with meals if it does that. I'm on 2mg-3x/day and no problems, but I also drink with a huge glass of water. Not sure if that helps too.

Glad you got to enjoy SF this time of year. Love the dream board too! So nice to focus our energies into some positive "what if's."

Nikki said...

I'm so sorry you're going through this. I think the wish board is a great idea. I'm not at the IVF point yet, but you're not alone. I can only imagine how you feel since the Clomid makes me crazy! Thinking of you and thinking pregnant healthy thoughts !

Aubrey said...

LOVE your wish board! Thinking of you always! XO

shay said...

i love the wishboard! such a great idea to have that up when going thru the shots and everything so you can visualize what you're putting yourself thru will be worth it in the end!

glad you're back in blogland!

rhonda said...

I am so hoping that this works for you. I wish for you as hard as I wish for myself and that's a lot! said...

Your husband rocks - congrats to Him! So sorry these pills are making you so bleh, ugh!!!! I think the board is a great idea - hope it's brought you comfort and peace!

Ashley said...

The wish board is such a wonderful idea! I don't think you are having a pity party, all of those symptoms have to be difficult to handle. Wishing you the best, with your side effects, work, and IVF!!

Katie @ Loverly She said...

I dearly hope that you experience all of those wonderful little baby things too, Jessah. I'm amazed by your perseverance through this journey!

Jen said...

Hi, I just started reading your blog a few months ago. Your IVF wish board is such a great idea! I'm currently on my second IVF cycle, and will be having my transfer on Thursday! You've inspired me to put together some type of a wish board too -- Thanks so much for the inspiration and for sharing your story. Wishing you all the best with this IVF and hope you start to feel better soon!

Mary Hammer said...

Hi Jessah - I've been following your blog for a little while. I did an egg retrieval cycle with ccrm at the end of July.

Mrs. E said...

I love your wish board and hope that everything on it comes true! I'm sorry about the symptoms though--so horrible. Fingers crossed that it's all worth it. I'm hoping right along with you!!

Amber said...

I think I took 4mg also during my cycle, but 2 of them were vaginally. (That was fun. Not!) I love San Francisco! Was it a pretty hilly race for A? That is awesome that he took first place. Thinking of you as you move forward into your cycle!!!!

Sadie said...

I thought of you just yesterday, when I realized we hadn't heard anything from you for a while. Lovely pictures! Looks like you had a great weekend, despite feeling crappy with the high dose estradiol. (All these things I have to look forward to with our upcoming IVF...)

I totally LOVE your IVF 'dreamboard' idea. Your aunt does rock! I may have to borrow that idea (since imagining a positive outcome at this point is all but impossible for me)...

Sending you good thoughts!

Kelly {Sparkles and Shoes} said...

That inspiration board is the cutest and I really hope it works!

Sparkles and Shoes

Sarah said...

Hugs and prayers and so many positive thoughts your way Jessah!!! I'm rooting for you every step of the way.

conceptionally challenged said...

I'm sorry the estradiol is tough on you. I took 2x2mg per day and was fine, maybe I was just lucky.
Glad you had a good time in San Francisco though :)

Nathalie Willmott said...

What a beautiful wish list! I pray that you get to experience each and every one of those xx

lamentingthelentil said...

I've been thinking about you, too, wondering where you've been! I love the IVF board. I am all about the powers of visualization. And, also, congrats to A!!

Caravan Sonnet said...

Thinking about you girl! Love that board idea!! Hope you start feeling a little bit better!!
:) Rebecca

Suzanne said...

Those are fantastic photos!! I love your IVF wish board. What a great idea!

I can't believe your cycle is starting!! I know you've waited for a long time to get this moving, so I'm very excited and hopeful for you!! Lots of good, good thoughts coming your way!! xo

Andrea said...

I wish you luck with your stims! I didn't have to take estradiol before I started stims but I was on birth contol for over a month before starting Gonal-F and Menopur. I was on those two drugs for 5 days before adding Ganirelix to the mix. Yes, that's 3 shots a day - 2 in the AM and 1 in the PM! My ovulation trigger shot was a Lupron shot instead of the HcG like the first time I did IVF.I did not overstimulate this last time. It was great to not go through that again. Since we had our embryos go through genetic testing this time I will be going through a frozen transfer. I start Lupron and Estradiol prior to the transfer to shut my ovaries down and thicken my lining. So many drugs, needles, work for one simple wish - a baby. Best of luck! :)

Janna Renee said...

I'm sorry you aren't feeling well! I love the idea for the board, and yours looks great ;) SanFran looks awesome! I had so much fun when we went there.

Stephanie F said...

I love the pregnancy board :) I truly wish you ALL that my friend.


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