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Saturday, July 20, 2013

the sun is shining

Yes, it is definitely shining. It's was a whopping 104 degrees today. Summer is my favorite season. Granted, I prefer it a few degrees cooler but still...the sun is out and that is a good thing.
After my last post, this one is all happiness and contentment.


I can't tell ya how long it will last. When it comes to this crazy journey...anything can happen. But for now, I'm feeling stronger and much more positive.
Why?

A couple reasons.

Reason #1...because of all of you. 
I'm so blessed beyond belief to have the kind of support that I have in my life right now. On this blog. My family and real life friends. My dear husband. When I'm at my lowest, the outstretched arms that envelop me...gives me so much strength.

Whether I have a baby or not, this experience has shown me the beauty of the human spirit...that people bother to take time out of their busy lives to support me. That people I've never even met feel my pain and want to share their words of encouragement. It never ceases to amaze me how wonderful this world of bloggers really is.
So thank you.

Reason #2
My breast biopsy is behind me. Although I'm still waiting on the "official" results from pathology, the needle drew out fluid which is a very strong indication that we are dealing with a cyst and not cancer.
Woo hoo!

Reason #3
I got my IVF calendar on Thursday and my checklist is almost complete. One endometrial biopsy to go and then in August my estrogen priming cycle will begin.
I'm ready. As ready as I'm ever going to get.

Reason #4
My mother. Knowing how busy I am at work, she offered to research drug costs for me. Armed with a list of pharmacies and my list of meds, she has been calling around to find us the best prices on each drug. I think this will end up saving us hundreds (possibly even thousands) of dollars.
You rock, mom.

Reason #5
If I've got to be on a shitty path to parenthood, at least I'm on it with this guy...and this guy. My hubby is my everything and so is this little boy of mine.

When things get tough, I just have to remind myself that...I'm already blessed beyond belief. Anything else is just icing on the cake.


38 comments:

Katie @ The Campbell's said...

Praying for you each day! It's such a yucky road to take, good luck with the endometrial biopsy that was the worst part for me...at least this far

Ms. Morgan said...

Thank you for sharing. Fingers crossed on the biopsy and the IVF.

www.curvesandacamera.om

JoJo said...

Yay! I'm glad your having a great time. Fun in the sun for sure. God knows I need a tan they just won't stick. I always find a sense of comfort when the people around me show me how much they care and are supportive. I hope you enjoy your weekend with the two love of your lives.

Alicia said...

Yay! I'm happy to hear that the sunshine is bringing happiness and that some of the stressful pieces of the puzzle are falling into placd. It sounds like you're in a really great headspace Jessah. It sounds like you have a great support system.

Rooting for you guys!

Aubrey said...

Love your strength and positivity, my friend! xoxoxo

Infertile625 said...

What a beautiful post! Made me misty eyed. I love the point about this journey showing you the beauty of the human spirit. So true.

Just T said...

What a huge turn of events since last week! I am so happy to hear things are going better. If you wouldn't mind, can you share the pharmacy information with me when your mom finds best price.The girls in my infertility group are always looking and asking about this.

Betty said...

Loving your positive outlook! Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers. Have a great rest of the weekend!

Team Harries said...

So glad you are soaking up some vitamin D! My favorite thing to do :) Your mom sounds like the sweetest!! Glad your biopsy is behind you and looking forward to hearing good results :)

Aramis said...

I'm also starting an estrogen priming cycle after I get my period at the start of August. We'll get through this together! Always nice to have DOR cycle buddies.

Gypsy Mama said...

I am so happy to hear you are in a good place Jessah. We all deserve days to feel sad, but the important thing is to pick ourselves up again. So glad you have wonderful people in your corner :)

Sillymama said...

Oh Jessah I am so glad to hear all of this!! I knew the biopsy would show nothing. You are so lucky to have the support you do. I am just so glad to hear you being positive. I am having a hard day today, probably my body still recovering from my last FET, but reading your statement today made me smile! Thanks for sharing!

Sydney said...

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I would love for you to stop by and say hello and follow back. I look forward to following along more in your journey.

Sarah said...

So happy you are feeling the love and that the sun is shining down on you today :) xo

rhonda said...

I'm glad you're feeling positive!! It's a wonderful thing.

Mrs B. said...

Naw so glad you are focusing on the positives xxx

Emily said...

So glad to hear you have some peace right now, and so many things to be grateful for indeed. Everything else is icing on the cake...so true when we have so much already. I think being able to stay in that place of gratitude is probably the most powerful saving grace in this journey of all. Excited for you to be moving forward with your IVF very soon!

Sarah said...

You gotta hold those happy moments close on the crappy journey of IF! I love your positivity. I'm praying for your IVF cycle!

Kasey Attianese said...

I was going to list my favorite reasons but I can't chose! Mom researching costs brought tears to my eyes. My mom would do the same thing for me! Gotta love rock star mama's!

And the shitty path to parenthood with an awesome husband is the only way to go!

Thinking of you and your upcoming IVF cycle!!

Amie said...

All of this is so very true!! Thank you for the reminder of the blessings in all of our lives every day :)

Always Maylee said...

I'm glad you got your calendar and are moving forward! Sending you positive thoughts!

xo, Yi-chia

shay said...

we all have good days and bad days! glad you're feeling a bit better! glad the breast biopsy is done. one less thing to worry about!

paulsgirl1297 said...

So glad to see you are having a good day , hope you have many more

conceptionallychallenged said...

#2 sounds great. And your mom rocks indeed!

Mrs. E said...

Thanks for stopping by my blog! I'm really looking forward to following you and your journey, as well. I'm sorry you've been through so much disappointment and heartache already, and I wish you so much luck on your upcoming IVF cycle!

LaynahRose said...

Good luck with the IVF and the biopsy! So glad you're at peace right now...worrying wont help either of those things!

Alie said...

I am glad you are feeling stronger and happier! I hope that optimism continues ;)

Katie Jeanne said...

What a beautiful post! I love your writing! I'm praying for you!

Sarah Jafari said...

Hi Jess, nice tan legs, where are you? Wish I was there with ya. I love all your reasons you posted. Glad everyone is supportive! Your last post was so sad and I knew that face of sadness you had; I've seen it before. I'm sorry you have to go through this and be sad, it makes me sad. You have always been the strong one and continue to. I pray that God will open your womb. I love you! Hope to see you soon.

Non Sequitur Chica said...

I'm so glad that things are going well and that is fantastic news that it is most likely a cyst in your breast.

Becca said...

I had my endo biopsy Tuesday. All I can say is women are pretty darn strong! Those things hurt. Was easier my 2nd time around though so yay! Glad to see you are feeling more positive! Those down days are rough:( xoxo

Sarah said...

Love this and love your positivity! And your pic of your dog in the water- too cute!!! I'm excited and hopeful for your IVF round. So many thoughts and prayers to you and your sweet dh. :)

Anonymous said...

Can't remember if I already told you about compassionate care program through fertility lifelines or not but if you apply for it it can save you up to 75% off Gonal F which was a lifesaver for me since I was on Max dose of it! Really easy and fast to apply.

@kourtyalo

Ashley said...

So glad to see that you are feeling more positive! It would be so easy to feel down with everything that you are going through, but your strength is inspiring!

Suzanne said...

I love this post. I've been a bit behind lately, and I'm sorry. This certainly brought a smile to my face. I'm thrilled for you to get your cycle going.
PS...that pup looks like such a sweetie!!!

Amber said...

I'm so glad you've been able to start this cycle with positivity. I love your outlook. Whether you get the desired result of a baby or not, you truly are blessed. My fingers are crossed, and prayers are being said. You are a beautiful person Jessah, inside and out. I wish you lots of luck!

Em said...

What a GREAT pic of your dog! So happy for all of your blessings, even in tough times.

Samantha said...

Aww such a lovely post xx

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