Or the genetic consultation with Natera regarding PGD.
Or the egg class we attended on Monday with the embryologist at our clinic. She basically went over the protocol for how everything is handled in the lab, what you can expect in terms of timing during an IVF cycle and the safety measures they have in place to minimize human error when handling your eggs, sperm and embryos.
Maybe it's the $3,500 in drugs I ordered from Freedom Pharmacy this morning. Or the injection training we had with our nurse coordinator this week. She ran through my entire drug schedule for this cycle and showed me how to mix and administer each of the injections.
Likely, it is all of the above.
But this is definitely starting to feel very real.
We are doing this. And it is going to be okay.
I know it will be overwhelming when that box of drugs and needles arrive.
I know I will likely pass out (or close to it) trying to give myself that first shot.
I know my hormones will rage and my body will be punctured, bruised and achy.
But every injection will get us one step closer to the baby I've dreamed of for so long.
If I remember that, I will get through this.
I start my Lupron shots the day after Christmas. Stims around the 5th of Jan.
Tentative retrieval date is the 16th. Transfer 7 days later. And we should have our second beta on the 31st. So I will know by the end of January if I am finally pregnant.