Last night, my body was ON FIRE. Between my fever which finally broke and the Lupron coarsing through my body, it was a hot one. I had no idea what to expect with the Lupron so I did a little digging. I found out this drug puts your ovaries in a state of rest, a temporary "menopausal" state.
Side effects: irritability, hot flashes, depression. Ah-ha...the heat makes sense now.
But let me back up.
I'd be remiss if I didn't share the ridiculousness that was...me trying to give myself that first injection. I'm sitting on the edge of the bed, pants down, drug prepped with the syringe in hand. All I have to do is stick it in. For over 30 minutes, I keep saying to myself "one, two, three". "Okay seriously Jess, you have to do it this time." This internal dialogue keeps going on and on. Meanwhile, I'm sweating profusely because of the anxiety of the whole thing. I kept trying to picture my baby's face in my mind and saying "you can do this" and "do it for your baby". Pretty soon, I just started laughing hysterically at the fact that I had been sitting there for so long and still couldn't stick myself.
I must've wore myself down because finally at some point I did it. And you know what? It wasn't too bad. I hardly felt it and the drug didn't sting like I thought it would. Hopefully this means tonight will be much easier.
I can't believe it is finally happening.
The countdown is on.
9 days til stims
20 days til retrieval
25 days til transfer
35 days til our first BFP
I wasn't sure how much I'd want to share on this blog about my IVF cycle but I'm going to be very candid in sharing this adventure. I want to remember the details of everything we went through to bring this baby into being.
I feel good. Not sad or depressed at all.
Sick. Tired. Rundown. But these are all due to the flu.
Ready to take on this adventure.
Getting rid of this flu bug.
Giving myself the first Lupron injection.
In love with...
the idea that this process will bring my long awaited baby into this world.
Sending prayers to a fellow blogger Chelsea who cycled very recently and just found out that she is having a miscarriage. If you're a blogger, please stop by and show her some support.