Monday, October 29, 2012

a difficult practice.

Our appointment with Dr. M went well.
Have I mentioned that I love him?
He is fantastic. Really. He is.

No endometrial cysts on my ovaries.
We are clear to move forward with IVF.
Later this week, we meet with our IVF coordinator.

A wants to do PGD (or PGS whichever you prefer).
He has gone along with whatever I want in this process.
So although I'm not sure doing this screening is my first choice,
I will let him make this decision because it is what he needs to feel comfortable.

We're scared.
But need to trust that what will be, will be.
That is really hard for me.

I'm a type-A personality.
I'm a planner. Strategizer. An action girl. 
But this is something I cannot control.
I must let go.

I will do the things in my power to ensure the best possible outcome.
Try to reduce my stress level and activities. 
Start acupuncture. Pray more. Eat healthy.
No alcohol, caffeine or running (once I start my drugs).

But that is it.
As our IVF journey unfolds, I have challenged myself,
to let go.

Saturday, October 27, 2012

After Baby: Sip and See

Two months ago, my dear friend had a baby girl named Aline. Due to some tragic circumstances that you can read about here...she never had a baby shower. Not for this baby nor her two babies prior.
This was not okay with me.

So with the help of my co-workers (special shout out to our intern Jessica because she rocks and was a tremendous help setting up) and Dorine's sister Rochelle (who is the most amazing event planner and caterer in Sacramento), we threw her a baby shower.  It was a southern-themed open house party after the baby's arrival called a Sip and See. A few of Dorine's closest industry friends were invited to come by our office to sip champagne, eat some appetizers and see the new baby.

The event colors were purple and butter cream. 
Take a look at the mouthwatering menu that Rochelle put together.

Pear & Gorgonzola Tartlets 
Bacon Stuffed Mushrooms
Jalapeño Artichoke Dip (with sliced sourdough baguette)
Mini Strawberry Triffles

The event turned out lovely and hopefully made our friend feel very special.

baby aline was not feelin' the paparazzi 

Hope you're having a great weekend.
Today, I'm guest posting over here on Jenna's blog. 
Stop by and say hello!

On Monday, I'll be posting an update from my appointment with Dr. M for all of those who are wondering how it went.

One more thing.
If you haven't signed up for the holiday ornament swap yet, you can do so here
Only 5 days left before signups close.

Thursday, October 25, 2012

A decision has been made.

Today we go to see Dr. M.
I haven't been to the clinic since the end of last year when I decided to do my laparoscopy.
Today, we are going for a consultation and he will be performing an ultrasound to see if there are any endometrial cysts on my ovaries.

If there are, I need surgery again.
If not, we are moving forward with IVF.
For real this time.
Like on my next cycle.

We are finally ready.
I'm not sure why the time never seemed right before.
Probably fear. I was am scared. 

But we need resolution. One way or the other.
A and I don't want to be in limbo anymore.
Either IVF works.
Or it doesn't.

I can't be afraid anymore.
At the end of this, we will either have a beautiful baby.
Or we won't. 

I hope it's not the latter.
But if it is, we will pick up the pieces and move on with our lives together.
Try to find the silver lining.
But it will be over.

My friends who don't quite know the right words have asked me if I'm excited.
Not at all.
Excited is not even close to the right word.
I could never be excited about all of the things I'm about to go through.
If you don't know what this process entails, read this.

I feel content.
Surprisingly, I'm not anxious. 
Although that might change when an arsenal of drugs arrives at my doorstep and I have a syringe in my hand trying to administer my first shot.

But for now, I'm at peace.
This is the right decision for us.
We don't want to give up on our dream of becoming parents without trying IVF.
But if this doesn't work, we are ready to walk away.

Since we need all the luck we can get, I will be wearing my special socks.
The ones that I received from a fellow infertility blogger friend, Toni in Cristy's sock exchange
They are the cutest owl, knee socks.
While other bloggers are swapping nail polish, magazines, scarves...we swap socks.
For good luck.
And to keep our feet warm in the stirrups!

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Things I Love Pinterest Party

This party has been in the making for a while.
As I mentioned to my guests, I'd been waiting patiently to be invited to a Pinterest Party since I stumbled upon this article.

The idea looked so fun!
And if I hadn't planned my own party, I'd probably still be waiting.
I'm glad that I took matters into my own hands.

A girl can't wait forever.

The theme as you can see by the graphic was pink ballerinas.
I didn't want to send it out on the invitations as I wanted my guests to see the theme all pulled together at the party.

ballerina rice krispie cupcakes
mason jar favors to be filled in the candy bar
DIY gifts and candy bar (including peppermint taffy, good and plenty and watermelon gummis)
All of the food and drinks for the party were inspired by Pinterest.
Take a look.

tomato, mozzarella, basil skewers with balsamic drizzle
avocado hummus and pretzels
strawberries, basil, brie and honey on crackers
veggie cups in ranch dip
lemonade bar with strawberries, blueberries and raspberries

Wondering how the heck a Pinterest Party works?
Here are the deets.

Each guest brings the necessary items/ingredients/directions to create the craft, item or recipe to the party. (Making sure to have it wrapped.)
Then gifts are exchanged - "white elephant style - allowing each guest to take home a fun, unique creation!

This party was so much fun. 
These 10 lovelies ladies attended the party.
It was really cool to see the different DIY ideas these ladies brought to the exchange.

If you're interested in seeing or pinning the DIY gift ideas given at the party, follow this Pinterest board.
I'll be adding the pins this week.

Don't you just love Pinterest!

Friday, October 19, 2012

Did you know...

Marilyn Monroe.
Arguably one of the most iconic woman in America.
She and I have something in common.
We both have endometriosis.

And sadly there is little more known today about this disease than there was 50 years ago.
That blows me away.

I don't know much about Marilyn.
But when I learned this part of her history, I did some digging.
Here's what I found...

It's rumored that she died from an overdose of pain pills prescribed to help her cope with pain caused by endometriosis.
She suffered an ectopic pregnancy and miscarriage as a result of this disease.
Many believe that her unhappiness was in large part due to her infertility.

A few years ago, the Endometriosis Association was even bold enough to suggest that Marilyn’s infertility may have indirectly contributed to her death: "Marilyn Monroe was a victim of endometriosis, putting her in the hospital repeatedly, contributing to her use of pain-deadening narcotics and aggravating her psychological problems.”

Did you know all of this?
I have endo and had never heard about this part of her life.
How disturbing that so few people speak of this disease and so little is known about it.
It is because of this that I wanted to blog about it.
Awareness. Pure and simple.

Monday, October 15, 2012

I did it!!!

Against all odds.
I did it!!!!

Despite the cramps from my endometriosis.
Despite the fact that I started my period that morning.
Despite the fact that I was doubled over in pain afterwards.
I ran my entire half marathon and finished with a respectable time.

Under 2 and 1/2 hours.
13.1 miles.
I'm so proud of myself.

The crazy thing is that I'm not even sore today.
Guess the 165 miles that I put into my 13-week training paid off.
But I wouldn't have been able to do it without my running buddy, Jenn.
She kept me going both in training and in the race. 

And my sweet hubby who encouraged me, supported me and was my biggest fan at the finish line.
Thanks, A!

Although I don't know if I'll ever run another half marathon, it felt amazing to set a goal and accomplish it, especially in the face of pain and adversity.

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Crock-pot link up: Braised Salmon and Spring Vegetables

It's me again.
Back together with my girls Andrea and Jane bringing you some new crock-pot recipes and a link-up.

As promised, I got my new crock-pot. 
Check this thing out.
Isn't she shiny and pretty?
Bertha finally retired. 
(If you have no clue what I'm talking about, read here.)

I decided to cook a salmon dish in the crock-pot because I had never done that before. It turned out great! But I do have a few tips. If you have a food processor, use it to chop the onions. This will shave a few minutes off your prep time. Also, the dish ended up being a little bit sweet.  If that's not your thing, omit the sweet potatoes and it should cut that flavor out a bit.

Also, I didn't use the creme fraiche.
Partially because I have no idea what it is.
But mostly because it sounds too fancy for a crockpot recipe.

Braised Salmon and Spring Vegetables  

2 large carrots, peeled, cut into cubes
2 large onions, peeled and chopped finely
1 medium sweet potato, peeled and cut into cubes
15 baby new potatoes, cut in half lengthways
3 1/2 ounces frozen peas
3 1/2 ounces green beans, chopped into 1-inch pieces
6 tablespoons olive oil
1 vegetable stock cube
4 tablespoons soy sauce
4 tablespoons fresh tarragon, chopped
10 1/2 ounces salmon, skinned and cut into 1-inch cubes
7 ounces creme fraiche
4 tablespoons fresh chives, chopped
freshly ground black pepper

  1. Place all the vegetables, olive oil, stock cube and soy sauce into the stoneware, season and warm on the stove top. Once warmed, place into the heating base and put on the lid. Cook on Low for 4 hours, stirring occasionally or on High setting for 2-3 hours.
  2. At the 4 hour mark add the tarragon, cubed salmon and stir well, turn up the heat to High and place the lid back on.
  3. Cook for a further 30-40 minutes, or until the salmon is just cooked, do not over cook.
  4. Finally remove the stoneware from the heating base and stir in the crème fraiche and chives.  

Dinner in served.
And it fed hubby and I all week long.
Link-up and share your crock-pot recipe with us.

Remember, we do this link-up every 2nd Sunday. More details here.
The button is in the left sidebar so please feel free to grab it and spread the word!
The more people who link-up, the more recipes we will all have to make this winter. 

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