I've been on a bit of a hiatus from blogging and from the world itself in many ways. At this point in my life, I needed some time to think and reflect on where I've been and where my life is going. It is so easy to get consumed by the infertility journey and neglect other things...things that are, in many ways, more important.
A and I have been focusing on reconnecting and enjoying each other's company. We are taking a break from TTC. It's hard to be present in your life and your relationship when you are obsessed with trying to have a baby. We need to get back in the habit of nurturing our relationship and ourselves. Being the people we were before life got so hard.
If we are ever blessed with a child, we will have the healthiest relationship possible because of the work we are doing right now. Adoption is an option. IVF is still an option. We have options. But we have to be strong as a couple in order to undertake either of those huge endeavors and bring another member in to our family.
Besides remembering all of the reasons that I fell in love with my husband, my main goal is to wake up in the morning and be the best person that I can be. Try to live like I haven't been hurt, haven't made mistakes and focus on this moment. Not the past and not the future. But this moment right here. Because it's all that really matters.