Saturday, September 6, 2014

no more PIO

11 weeks | san francisco | my first maternity top

we're doing good. 
thank you to those who emailed and commented on IG...i didn't mean to worry you. we feel blessed to have so many cheerleaders rooting for us. baby sunshine and i are doing really well. i'm in my 12th week and just had my last PIO injection. yay! with 2cc's of progesterone per night for 12 weeks, my rear end didn't have a single spot that was lump-free and hubby was getting sick of hearing me blubber about it. now i just worry that my body is producing the estrogen and progesterone needed to support this pregnancy on its own. my doctor says that it is and i shouldn't be concerned. so i'm trusting that everything will be just fine. 

bye bye sharps containers. i can't believe i filled all of these up.

i never intended to take a blogging hiatus and go MIA for so long. i've just been so tired. after a two hour per day commute, a 8-10 hour work day, trying to eat healthy and walk 45 minutes per day…i've been out of commission by 8:30pm (right after my PIO shot). hopefully in my second trimester, i'll be able to catch up on all my blog reading and commenting.

when i did have a rare burst of energy to write, i struggled to find the words. the right things to say. i'm so happy for this pregnancy yet i am sad for all of my friends that are still in the trenches - praying nightly for their miracle babies. truth is, i know how to be infertile. it has been my life for almost 6 years. writing about my infertility was easy because i knew it would help others feel less alone. but now, my blog has the potential to cause pain. i know how tough it can be to read glowing pregnancy posts after you've just experienced a failed cycle. so i struggle to find the balance between supporting those who are still trying to build their families and sharing this crazy, wonderful time in my life.

this time is filled with happiness, worry, excitement and fear and i want to share all of that here. but i don't want to hurt anyone.

Friday, August 15, 2014

a little heartbeat

oh what an amazing day. 
we were able to see our baby's heartbeat at 7 weeks.

unfortunately, i got caught in a little situation with no monitoring after my pregnancy test. my local clinic who's done all of my outside monitoring wouldn't see me anymore once i received a positive beta. rude, huh? my ob/gyn typically doesn't see pregnant patients for their first prenatal visit until 9 or 10 weeks. luckily, my ob knew our history and saw me early. although i think we will have to pay out of pocket for the ultrasound he did in his office. 

oh well. it was worth it. to see our baby sunshine and know that he is doing well in there. i think seeing the baby snuggled in my lining and seeing his little heart beating in the ultrasound finally made it real for A. he's been talking more about the baby, making plans and it's been so nice. 

i'm on cloud 9. 
but i still can't believe i am writing this post.
me?!? i am pregnant with a real baby with a beating heart.
i never thought i'd see that day. 

for those of you who still feel like you'll never see the day,
don't give up hope. dreams really do come true when you keep fighting.

Wednesday, August 13, 2014

how do you prefer your progesterone?

so i almost wish that my RE would have given me a solid recommendation on progesterone supplementation. instead, he said that the suppositories and injections are both equally as effective and i could choose whichever one i prefer. 

if i chose suppositories, i'd be taking oral (prometrium) with whichever suppository i selected. so here are the options.
crinone (suppositories)
endometrin (suppositories) 
PIO - progesterone in oil (injections)

i did a lot of research before deciding. it is basically a missed bag. here are some of the things i read.

progesterone in oil 
- gold standard in IVF. most RE's recommend using it
- levels can be measured in your blood while the suppositories can't
- some people have allergies to the oils and could have a bad reaction
- a lot of pain at injection sites from big fatty needle

- seems to be the more commonly used suppository 
- complaints of bleeding from irritated cervix 

- less messy than prometrium because it absorbs better instead of leaking out
- a little bit more expensive than promethium 

after reading all of this, i decided to go with nightly crinone suppositories with a side of oral endometrin. i have to admit that i was scared of the PIO needle. i figured, why give myself injections if i don't have to? plus, my friend gave me her leftover crinone from her IVF cycle so i had the cost covered.

on the first night of suppositories, i was looking through the ginormous booklet in the box for the instructions on how to insert the crinone and came across this warning.
"Risk to the fetus. Birth defects have been reported in the offspring of women who were using Crinone during early pregnancy. These included an abdominal wall defect and a cleft palate. A causal association has been neither confirmed nor refuted. You should check with your doctor about the risks to your unborn child of any medication used during pregnancy." (under the title of "Risks of Crinone")
what the heck? um, no thank you. my nurse swears that it is safe but that little warning didn't make us feel very comfortable. there was a similar warning on the endometrin box. but no warning like this in the PIO booklet. so after two nights, i switched to PIO shots. why risk it? i'd rather endure the pain in my ass (literally) from 2cc PIO injections every night than risk birth defects.

but i know a lot of y'all used suppositories. i'd love to hear your experiences and hopefully this post will help others who are seeking information about progesterone supplementation. 

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